I was listening to Something Corporate tonight, and when it came to Only Ashes, I thought of the line "Incinerate what's left of this and torch the part of me that's you," because holy crap I, and I'm sure all of us at one point or another, have thought I just want to forget this person! Me, I still dwell on Brenna way too fucking much. Kinda-sorta-not-really doesn't help that I saw her boyfriend on facebook just yesterday as of this post because we have a mutual friend, but I digress.
I was thinking about this line and the fabled "forget whatever you don't want to remember!" technology that society indubitably fantasizes about every so often. I mean, just forgetting all the time I spent with her? All the repercussions she's had on my life? Are you kidding me? I was such a loser before I met her. I'm still a loser, but now I don't suck so much in a conversation.
I grew so much as a person last year. I still have a lot of growing to do. Seeing that she has moved on when I last heard that she wouldn't sleep or eat because I wouldn't talk to her was more than a kick in the pants.
I don't care so much about forgetting her. I just don't want to be so sad anymore.
Quite elementary, dear boy: take up seal clubbing! Ah, their tiny squees of terror fill my hearts with unimaginable joy!
ReplyDeleteBut seriously: getting over relationships is utter shit, especially when the other person just seems to blow it. So much ass.
I had made upon this article comments of a Shakesperian quality, ruminations of the maladies of the heart and its ruinous effects upon the wills of all men. But alas, it was not meant to be it seems. For the best, I hope, as it would have seemed nonsensical and meaningless. Suffice to say, you've learned and grown, which is all one can hope to do in this life. And of course, when you're up and typing tbese things out, you are always more than welcome to contact me at any time for anything at all.
ReplyDelete-Ian